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.Then he sighed, dropped his hand to his thigh and looked out the windshield."Unsure."Her heart beat harder against her ribs."Unsure about whether you want to go ahead with it?""Unsure about how to go ahead with it I've seduced women plenty of times, but you don't want to be seduced.You want this to be businesslike.I've never done it that way."On a ray of hope, she said, "Y'know, we could still do it my way.I'm sure my doctor would be willing to meet us in his office tomorrow—""Forget it, " Spencer stated.He didn't have to elaborate.The finality of his tone said it all.Jenna knew better than to ignore the message.Yes, she wished they were doing it her way, but still, Spencer was doing her a huge favor.He was helping her make a baby.A baby.She couldn't forget that"It shouldn't be difficult, " she said in a deferential tone.If he didn't know what to do, it was really the blind leading the blind."We both know the mechanics.Isn't that enough?"He didn't answer.In fact, he didn't say anything for the rest of the drive, which saddened Jenna.Always in the past when she'd been with him, talk had been easy.She loved hearing about his travels, his adventures, his books, and as though sensing her interest, he relaxed in the telling.But the air between them was tense now.She had the awful thought mat their relationship might be permanently changed, and prayed that wouldn't be so.When she pulled up at the house, he grabbed his gear from the back seat and followed her in.She wavered for an instant in the hall before saying, "I'll uh, show you to your room.You may want to unpack." She led him up the stairs and down the hall.The room she had chosen for him was nearly as large as her own, though at the opposite end of the house.At the door, she moved aside to let him pass.He went in, dropped his things on the bed and stood with his hands on his hips and his back to her.His spine was straight, his displeasure evident."If you don't like this room." she began, only to stop when he turned quickly.His face was dark, his eyes iridescent as they held her in their thrall."I think we should do it now, since neither of us will relax till it's done.I need a shower.I'll meet you in your room in ten minutes, okay?"Jenna knew he was right.The longer they put it off, the more nervous she would be, and she was plenty nervous already.At his words, she had started to shake.It was all she could do not to let it show."Fifteen minutes, " she bargained, then swallowed and explained, "It takes me longer.In the shower.""Fifteen minutes, " he agreed.His eyes held hers for a heart-stopping moment more before letting her go.Spencer took his time in the shower.Long after he had soaped himself from head to toe, he stood with the hot spray concentrated on the tight muscles at the back of his neck.True, the mess with the manuscript had gotten him down, but he suspected that he might have handled it better if Jenna hadn't been weighing heavy on his mind.No artificial insemination, he had told her with such smugness.It's the real thing or nothing.Such arrogance.Sexual intercourse, between you and me.Such cocksureness, and why the hell not? He was a handsome guy.He was a super lover.He would show little Jenna McCue the time of her life, and she'd get the baby she wanted, to boot.He had believed all that up until several days earlier, when the reality of what he had arranged had hit him—and it wasn't the baby part that bothered him, as much as the Jenna part.She was Caroline's best friend, and he had always liked her.She was gentle and understanding.She accepted his way of life.She was also vulnerable where men were concerned, something he hadn't realized until she had put her proposal to him at his parents' anniversary party.He wasn't used to vulnerable women, any more than he was used to petite women.He was used to women who were tall and shapely, who reveled in their sexuality, who came to him with confidence and hunger, and demanded as much as they gave.Jenna wasn't like those women at all, but now he felt a responsibility for her.He wanted to please her, but he wasn't sure how best to do it.She wanted their coming together to be a simple, straightforward coupling for the sole purpose of producing a child.His body wanted more.He shifted to put the force of the spray on the small of his back, then raised first one arm, then the other to stretch his muscles.He supposed he could find a compromise.He could be gentle, without dwelling on preliminaries.He could make her feel good if she let him.The question was whether she would.Turning the water off, he reached for the towel and dried himself.He looked at his foggy reflection in the mirror, pushed his hair around a hole, took a toothbrush from his grooming kit and set about brushing his teeth, and all the while he pictured Jenna in her own bathroom getting ready for him.By the time he'd rinsed his mouth, a slow heat was gathering between his legs.No, getting it up wouldn't be a problem.Preparing Jenna to take it in might be.He glanced at his watch.It was time.Knotting a dry towel around his waist, he left the bathroom and headed down the hall.Jenna's was the only other room lit.He assumed it had once been her parents' room, but he wasn't thinking about her parents when he came to stand at the door
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